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03-21-06 03:37


(yay for muscles)
03-19-06 17:35
Quoting my favorite book:

"There is, in truth, no Past, only a memory of the Past. Blink your eyes, and the world you see next did not exist when you closed them. Therefore, the only appropriate state of the mind is surprise. The only appropriate state of the heart is joy. The sky you see now, you have never seen before. The perfect moment is now. Be glad of it."

- Terry Pratchett, "Thief of Time"
03-05-06 13:18
I'm sorry i didn't sound more excited on the phone
I'm sorry that after all these years
I've left you feeling unrequited and alone, brought you to tears
I guess i never loved you quite as well as the way you loved me
I guess i'll never really be able to tell you how sorry
I am

And i don't know what it is about you
I just know it's not what it was
I don't know why red fades before blue it just does
And i don't know what it is about me
That i just can't keep still
I keep thinking someday i will make this all up to you
And maybe someday i will

I guess i never loved you quite as well
As the way you loved me
I guess i'll never really be able to tell you how sorry
I am
Sorry i am
Sorry i am
Sorry i am
02-23-06 09:52
i have been inked. see myspace for visual evidence. :)
11-29-05 08:14
happy birthday to me
10-22-05 22:29
i was never who you thought i was, and i wouldn't meet the lowest of your expectations of me.

be thankful for this.

i am not who i want to be.

i'm not sure when i'll want that to happen enough.

you've got to take those blinders off - and remember what you deserve, and see what you truly have.

you'll see it.

o_o 09-01-05 19:59
wooorkk... loooonggg 09-01-05 19:58



I need to for my life.

I am TIRED. Last night, while sleeping away, I was awakened by Odette.. waking.. and barking her head off. At what? The crisp shadow of someone standing at / very near to my window. Yea. It ran away after Odette started barking.. so, I'm not sure whether or not to be comforted by that. I mean, it COULD have just been somebody with their dog.. but they'd have to be standing pretty damn close to the window for the shadow to be as clear as it was. :( I just stay in bed with my heart beating a million miles an hour, swearing about how I'm never going to be able to sleep with my windows/sliding door open again. :( I AM VERY UPSET. I have lived at my complex for 8 months now and I've never had something like that happen. Fuckin.. scary crap. I watched The Notebook last night. It was pretty good. Definitely a chick-flick, but a GREAT chick-flick. Okay. I guess I'll find something ELSE to do.
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